I am wild in my faith and
commitment.
No. Not to God.
It's been some time now since I've had
the desire for religion's stories, not because I feel failed by them
or because I lack a sense hope—as my childhood self naively
believed of agnostics and atheists. Rather, I no longer want to place
my faith in stories crafted by ancient men. It feels inauthentic to
me.
My faith is instead in the process—by
which I mean nature and its cycles, containing all humanity, the
Earth, the universe and all that exists undiscovered beyond that. The
process encompasses man's ideas of God and places them within the context
of the development of civilizations. Then the process whittles away
at the concept of civilization, slowly, in a way which requires an ocean of
patience—withstanding a thousand shades of abuse, addiction, war,
loss, triumph and joy.
I have faith that the process makes
things all right in the end. That its purpose is to heal. And that
people will never really understand how this works but shouldn't stop
trying. Our quest to understand is a key element of the process
itself.
To that end, I am wildly committed to
myself. More specifically, I'm committed to moving with the process
in the ways my intuition tells me are right and true, given the role
I feel myself to play within each moment I'm alive. I'm wild for
doing this with as much grace, dignity, passion and joy as I'm
able—despite the adversity I sometimes face, much of which is due
to the contradictions inherent in the way personal fidelity sometimes
manifests itself through my endorsement of certain acts of infidelity
and rebellion. I've always loved a good paradox.
With this post, I'm including a picture
of me with my new (and first) tattoo. I intend to write more about
this independent of my “She is Three” contribution. However, I
feel it fits here too. For me, my tattoo, a semi-colon-inspired
arrow, is an emblem of my personal faith and commitment:
- I believe in my aim.
- I believe in moving forward.
- I believe in timing--especially in pauses, which connect as much as separate.
- I believe my words will reach their target eventually.
I am so wildly committed
to these beliefs that I welcome a reminder inked beneath my skin. #sheisthree, #sheiswild
Beautiful, Kelli! Thank you for your kind words and for participating this month. xo B
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome. Thanks, Bella!
Deletei am a simple, old man. but i've learned this... u are indeed on the right path with process as u've described. process, by virtue of divine intent, knows the way home. intent is where it all begins...
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